You Make Me Feel Good.

Tuesday, February 28, 2006

save, violet. save money!! @ 12:37 PM

ps, i saw your post on our blog. i am the blog master so noticed it super easily. some test on us. mabbe. but i know the 4 of us will be there for each other when needed. that's for sure. so it doesn't mean we don't get tog as often as in the past means we are not close anymore... we are still close in the hearts. =) was doing a test online just now and when asked for the 5 ppl who are most important in my life now, i put daryl, mom, sis, you and jeanie. if there's space i would have put 'june' in there as well.. and the results was; both you and jeanie are ppl i will never forget in my life. =) true..

i was talking about going to australia with jiehan just now.. i have this idea man.. haha. i wanna save money. if i can do that by june, i wanna go brisbane!! i wanna go australia larr... i want the winter.. hahah.. go ka-jiao dear when he's having exams, then we return to singapore tog. =P or better still, just go after his exams, then return just before my birthday. =)

aiyahh.. like that just now the wish that i made for the quiz should have been "visit brisbane" instead. haha.. but the other wish is much more important to me... yeahhh i love daryl ang a lot a lot!! although he's woodblock, dumb, ...~~ hahahha..

Saturday, February 25, 2006

@ 3:17 PM

it's all such an coincidence. haha... very erm, interesting day i would say.

here goes. i was supposed to meet ryan for lunch today since both of us will be teaching tuition in west coast till 12.30pm. just that his students lives 2 bus stops away from my student. so we actually said to each other ytd we might meet each other in the same bus. i waited very long for the bus this morning larr! so i was quite fed up that how come it take so long for them to come. 2 buses...any one would do yet none came. so when i got up the bus and sat down, someone tapped on my shoulder. haha ryan goh! then he alighted before me. when tuition finished, i thought i would be late so i told ryan to wait for me at the interchange. he also happened to miss his bus and when he saw my msg, he somehow knew it would happen. we boarded the same bus again. hahaha!! this time round i boarded it first. so we had lunch tog. and we shared the famous cai tao kueh! very nice and crispy........ haha. my first time eating it. dear, when you come back we go eat k!?

violet has survived 3 full days without seeing daryl..

Friday, February 24, 2006

my relationship with d' @ 4:37 PM

"a relationship that can stand the test of time and distance will be very strong.." that's from jeremy~!!

last 2 days was hell for me. kinda in a depression mode. you just sit down and eat your lunch and tears started flowing. you sit down to do your homework, you have the urge to cry again. basically, i've been crying non-stop since wednesday afternoon till last night 11plus. was really sad. there was no specific cause. not in the missing-you-already mode. i was in that "lamenting over your leaving" mode. (yeahhh not as if you've died.) hahah... but after last night's msn chat, i felt so much better.... =) sorry for raising my voice at you before that over the phone. wasn't really myself..

very glad daryl has quit drinking. =) =) =) both ryan and daryl told me they will quit drinking on the same day, wednesday. yeahhhhhh~!!! good cause for celebration, but the fella is not here in singapore. haha. maddie left singapore for brisbane early this morning too. take care maddie!! and i saw lynette in school today!! haha.. and the j-lang test today went well~ definitely better than j-lang 2! hiaks.

i am so envious of danielle and qiming, daryl's housemates. you see, we've been together for 8 months. but the actual time spent together in the same country was just 3 and half months. the number of days we saw each other was like 60days? (that is definitely an over-estimation.) come to think of it, it's so sad larr.

8 months together and both of us have a strong feeling that we both want to be with each other for a lifetime. i really do. =)

Wednesday, February 22, 2006

@ 3:52 PM

daryl should be reaching brisbane in another hour's time. his dad and i sent him off this morning.. had a nice chat with his dad from airport till the point when i reached home. thanks uncle for sending me back =)

yesterday wasn't spent wisely i would say. bought lunch over for the 2 of us. then we played maple story together. the pig fell asleep while i continued playing. then dinner with his grandma and auntie and family.. then maple for a short while. and ryan came over to chat. me, sam, ryan and d' had fun talking. then i couldn't take it. thought i could sleep. so the girls went to bed while ryan n daryl went downstairs. i needed the company when i realised i want d' by my side. couldn't sleep. went downstairs to get water and i was &%^$! . how come fries outta the paper that is layed on macs tray cannot eat, cos they're dirty. but u expect me to drink water with ants in it. i have this pyschological thing abt ants in water that i drink k. took u another one half hrs to realise your girlfriend needs time with you. felt really horrible and sad. " if tmr you will talk to elaine and ignore me again like the last time, why am i here to stay over for tonight??" kept coming to my head.

i am too selfish and over-sensitive, i admit to these. what for do you need company when your bf is talking and drinking with his bro? but i said 'i can't sleep' to you when i went to get water. all you did was to come upstairs and off the lights for me. leaving me in total darkness alone. is it just me or is it you? dear, you mean a lot to me do you know that? another 4 months without you. it will be hell. couldn't bring myself to hate you all the way till morning too. didn't talk much just because i felt exhausted.

you drink you puke. i don't like you to drink at all. i begin to realise this now. please live longer for the sake of me. i shall trust ryan on leading you guys to a healthier path like he just told me. ryan just asked me whether should he quit drinking completely. haha my answer was drink but pls control.

slept only at 5 plus. woke up 7. that's why i was sleeping all the way from 10 till 3.30pm just now. girls tend to cry over things that have passed yeah?

Friday, February 17, 2006

@ 2:07 AM

addicted to maple story.... and i dunno why this post has gone missing. haha.. retype. cos it's my diary!! i want it to be in there... i played with daryl and his sister sam tonight. started playing just ytd and now i am in level 14. very cute. all 3 of us in the game! then daryl brought me to become an archer.. he was in his warrior armour and shield and everything. when he said 'follow me', i felt it was so cute. so protective. haha silly to think of it this way but i thought it was quite romantic. hahahah... his 'devol' even brought my 'viovio' clothes and weapon...

it's quite similar to him in real life. always knowing the way... always protecting me.. but just a lil' woodblock i would say =P

my tuition kid was so eager in wanting to meet me in the game i think. he gave me 7 missed calls today in school to ask whether i had installed and began playing... hahaha.. he was the one who made me wanna install the game actually.. oh no~~

Thursday, February 16, 2006

@ 10:10 AM

so many things happened over the last few days. last friday i had a fun time with my sajc s75 class gathering!!

us in a pan pacific hotel room sponsored by maddie's parents!

then i had a bitter *quarrel* with daryl on saturday. hence, the post before this. *sigh*

then sunday, i went to sing ktv with swollen eyes with my cousin. they cheered me up. my mom played mahjong with me on sat night when i didn't join the guys out at double o, hoping i would cheer up a little. i managed to win with *shi san yao* for the first time. haha.. thanks mom. but that sat night was very miserable.. nvm. back to sunday! cousin's birthday and godmum wanted me to bring daryl along. so i asked and he came. but wasn't in the mood to talk much and that agitated him. dunno why, i ended up crying at the void deck. couldn't help it. and so, we have patched things up! =) to punish him, here are 2 photos. u guys decide for youself which is the one meant for punishment.

i went to xuemin's birthday celebration party at chevrons on monday!! had so much fun with my primary school classmates and of course fun from teasing angeline and her bf. think they wanted to whack me, qiuting and yixian already. hahah.. xuemin, you are slim enough!! but as you wish for it, i shall hereby wish you be able to go even slimmer and remain that way forever!! haha..

it's valentine's day on tuesday.. some unhappiness over the phone the night before and made me feel moody the whole morning. brought him his big box of present and his lunch and travelled to yio chu kang via mrt & train. who ask you to live in such a ulu ulu place huh? hahah.. started tearing non-stop after reading his card.. *very very touched* my eyes are watery now again.. haha.. my dear, you mean so much to me larr. though i always say you worth nothing when you say you yourself is priceless. =P

from him to her:

from her to him:

yesterday, i tried to be lady for once. wore heels. yeap, as expected, i have 7 blisters now. we watched *fun with dick and jane*. muahahah.. sent me laughing quite many times. and dear had to control me. =P we had ice cream at swensen's. had my cookie summit and dear saw my cookie-summited face at last. erm, i kinda like didn't talk much to him. really. hahahha.. it was yummy!! then we travelled to east coast. sat by the sea.. love the feeling... i feel very loved. but suddenly got funny questions pooping out from d's mouth. spoil the feeling a lil'. hahah.. jeanie should know what i mean.

oh he even called ps 'darling' in his sms before me. ps~ how can you do this to me........ =P

dinner was good at beach cabana. ambience was good. feeling was good. i feel good with you around. will be waiting for your return...

Saturday, February 11, 2006

fark @ 6:40 PM

my day. spoilt. so thoroughly. through and through.

it's near 7pm now. i only had water for the whole day. no food. drank water just half an hr ago somemore. been thinking about the plans. until i didn't wanna eat.

3 phone conversations. each time i have hope. but the last time, i was devastated. maybe there's a better word to use la. but i dunno. last time wanna go~ mom sure won't allow. nothing to say. this time mom really let me go free! but i still end up not going!!! can stay out late. can stay over at other's hse. why did you have to stop me when i was so ready to take a cab over already!?!? freak

stay in. forever stay in. how many such chances do i have to go out and have fun with a big gang? not say i want the clubbing experience... i think i want the company more. you don't sound nice each time i say i can go. got trouble got problem. now i am in! yeah staying in!! everyone's happy and glad. i wanna die.

i'm venting my anger in my blog, no one is to stop me. don't ask me anything. last night's fun during s75 gathering seem to be totally offset by today. how greaat.

i am just so depressed now. haha. depressed 3 times a day. i am so impressed with the plans/events that can happen to me.

Thursday, February 09, 2006

@ 6:43 PM

yeahh.. posted in the ivle forum for my gem module. ivle postings account for part of ca score. my other chinese module also requires me to write report for every tutorial. i find it quite effective. haha. at least it makes me do my readings... got back my report for last week. anyhow whack one~ 3.75/5 happy enough. at least nvr fail. hehe. dear's gonna boink me. forever so slack. *bu4 shang4 jin4*

tuesday's ktv session with the twins ryan & bryan and daryl. haha. what can i say? the 3 guys really whacked all the english songs!! i sang like 8 songs. haha.. 5 hours. we actually made it through! erm. *we will rock you* was really funny. not forgetting the famous "i don't wanna miss a thing" by *the 3 bros* =P

we ate stingray at jurong west ave 1. then dear stayed over at my house. early morning yesterday, dear and i took train to ang mo kio to have our lunch before going to his house. i had a wonderful sleep/nap at his house!! haha weird dreams came to me as well! what his dad say i nvr give daryl a son and want him to remarry and leave me sorta thing. haha!! i still think too much when i am so exhausted. had dinner with his dad. then back to his house. only managed to reach home at 12.30am~ mr ang was playing with his maple story and trying to accumulate his 30 marbles to become a *fighter*!! so i was waiting for him to become a fighter before he sent me back. haha.. didn't want his game to be disconnected mahh, if not he gotta start all over collecting the marbles. banana, see?? i am so nice. even explained to my friends i was the one who made you play. if not you will think i am out to suan you again.

2 full days with you!!! i am beginning to miss you again... told mrs tan i can't have the tuition postponed to next tues & wed because i wanna spend them with you!! hehe..

no tuition tonight, i'll do my homework now~ having jc (1st 3 months) gathering tomorrow night. hope it will be fun! haha..

Sunday, February 05, 2006

mood . emotions @ 11:21 PM

i feel down. sudden attack.

have you guys ever wondered why one's emotions can be so easily affected by others?? i affect others with mine. others affect mine with their tone in speech. when the tone is not right, arguments occur, sparks fly everywhere, mood heads straight down. mind you, i was so happy the whole day. even though i've lost money during mahjong. the maids commented i looked very happy the whole day. urgh. i shall bury my head in my pile of homework now. freak. ass.

maybe your voice is just too deep that it sounded really dead and sian. i should stop being so hyperactive. maybe one will live longer if he is the quiet type. i waste too much energy jumping around and sounding happy. i don't know what i'm typing. i am so stuck to you. my whole world is you. i expected a much more happier you over the phone.

Thursday, February 02, 2006

beach!! @ 11:08 AM

oh yes! violet is a slacker violet is a slacker! no ch3243 tut till the 7th week. no ch3223 tut today cos it's going to start on 16th feb. muahaha.. so i am only going to sch from 12-2pm later. giving me more time to do my chinese report which has to be handed in tmr. and i dunno how to comprehend the readings...

anyway, cny is slipping away quietly!! here's a picture taken on the first day of new year. haha my luck was good was when we played black jack for the whole day! this sat we are going to auntie's hse for steamboat! haha our yearly thing. daryl is going hse-hopping with ryan they all. cannot join me ald...my aunties keep asking for him. haha..

okies! we went to the beach ytd. yes, just me & d'. cos jr couldn't make it. we reached siloso beach at 10.45am. played volleyball for a while then we started our suntan. quite cloudy. we left the beach at 1.30pm coz' *someone* said it's futile to stay any longer. sun not strong. but when we came out after our shower, the sun was atrocious!! super sunny! but!!! good thing we left early... now we are 2 successful lobsters!!! very red. my stomach is very red and hot and painful! stupid ang put so much suntanning oil on my stomach. haha he's not any better. whole body red like dunno what. being the silly me, having nothing better to do, i measured the temp of my body just now! stomach-35.4 degress, shoulders-35.6 degrees. hahah... oh i used this super uv-protection cream ytd on my face. it's really super.. now my face is fair(same color as before) but whole body red. pui~!!!!

(you see, we were red. taken when we were waiting for the bus. now it's like 4 times redder.)

oh i had i good laugh on board the blue line bus ytd. one s'porean uncle and his wife. they made me laugh until i had cramps. for those who are interested, ask me personally. haha.

okays. at d's house ytd, we ordered pizzahut delievery again!! hoho... a large curry chicken pizza and 6 honey drumlets. had dinner with his dad n sis n sis' friend on 2nd day of cny at fish & co. glass house. after knowing i am a big-eater as well, his dad said daryl and i are compatible with each other. haha..

we are going to the beach every week from now. till daryl leaves for brisbane again on the 22nd. *try to fake a smile* =)